Hi guys,
Sorry it's been such a long time since I last posted. I've been so busy with uni and life in general that this just got swept aside and I totally forgot about it. Unfortunately it's just going to be a short one today. Can't believe I am nearly at the end of the course. Come July, providing I pass everything I'll be a radiographer :-) Only got a handful of assessments to do now really. I've done one of my clinical assessments for CT, I did that just before Christmas and that went quite well. Still got my big assessment to do this month though which I am dreading. I don't know what has happened to me lately but I just seem to be panicking and cracking really easy under pressure. I think it's cos there is so much riding on everything and it is all just taking it's toll.
As for uni - all lectures and everything have been completed. It's just a case of a few assessments left to do. Dissertation and essay have been handed in now and a couple of OSCEs completed. More coursework and OSCEs due next week so fingers crossed for those. I'm a bit worried about how I did on one of the OSCEs last week as I pretty much had a meltdown. I had a bad headache, felt the pressure of the time constraints and everything I learned and knew to do just went out the window to the point I forgot even the most basic and obvious of thing so it's not looking good. Have still been suffering today with a bad head and generally not feeling myself but like I say, I think it's stress and lack of sleep! Anyway, I've pretty much slept the day away because of it and now am wide awake. Need to sort my body clock out I think!
I haven't started applying for jobs or anything yet as I don't want to jinx myself or add extra unnecessary pressure on myself. One just came up at my placement but I've not applied yet as I've literally not had time and intend to wait until the end of the week when exam results are back and I know I have passed everything. Quite a few people have got jobs already and there seem to be lots coming up on NHS jobs so I'm not too worried. Also, I think it's best to keep your options open before rushing into things. I'm sure I will find something when the time is right so I'm quite positive about that.
Will try to get a few posts in over the coming weeks as things will have calmed down by then. I'll have done all my assessments and hopefully passed then it's just a case of getting through placement. It's all starting to seem very real now and can see the light at the end of the tunnel and like I can almost touch it. Just hope I haven't come this far to throw it away on one silly exam :-/
